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Here’s why I don’t have much posts in my blogs.

I’m one of the people who had a hard time expressing feelings and thoughts, so I most-likely keep it to myself. But then, it came to me that I must express myself in ways where I could put out my thought and not keep it to myself it must be out there in the world, communicate. I had this blog for like 3 years and yet I couldn’t find time and words to post. I rarely had time to post something that came up to my mind. I’m struggling. I am. I even couldn’t write in my diary!

I hope that I would frequently write and post here. It could be about book review or writing like a journal or just a simple thought. I would like also to engage in any discussions with you. I really love this community that’s why I am trying hard to be here, with you all. I’m looking forward to the future of this blog.

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Summer daze

Regina Belmonte

I think I just saw someone who looks like you, you text me on a Sunday morning in Berlin. Are you here somewhere?

Not yet, I reply. That’s not me. Still getting dressed. But I’m coming.

Eleven in the morning is a little too early for Berghain when you aren’t trying to catch a particular DJ set, even for me, but what I don’t tell you, and what I’m trying not to admit to myself, is that I was not yet dressed when I said I was getting dressed — I rushed the process to see you, the handsome new friend I have an embarrassingly huge crush on. Luckily, the club is easy to dress for.

Berghain is at that strange transition time on Sunday morning, when I arrive. The tourists of Saturday night have either hooked up or struck out, and are now slowly filtering out of the club…

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Book Review

Holding Up The Universe

Rating: 2 out of 5.

I actually have concerns in this book. For example:

“I am the Pauline Potter of Martin Van Buren Highschool. I am going to sex the rest of this weight right off me.”

And I’m like, Ma’am what the hell??? I understand that you’ve been locked in your room for many years but damn the thirst.

Also, MVB really has bad students. All of Jack’s friends are assholes and so is he. Having prosopagnosia is not an excuse to be an asshole. Yes, you must fit in and keep your swag on but seriously are you that low to do the fat girl rodeo? You knew that it’s wrong and it is actually harassment and bullying.

I thought that this book is about how two people find each other and gonna be friends. They help each other and as well understand their situation in life despite the dissimilarity of their problem. But no, it’s not. Libby and Jack are lovers despite the ‘fat girl rodeo’. Honestly, this is a degrading and hurtful game that Jack decided to play on. Anyway, Libby and Jack don’t have chemistry. To be honest, Libby and Mick from Copenhagen got a lot more chemistry. (If you know what I mean. *wink wink.)

This book has its good moments and messages like body positivity, mental illness and stop bullying.

I really wished that it focused more on body positivity and prosopagnosia more than two highschoolers falling in love with one being overweight and one having a mental disorder. These are just that supporting factors for the characters and for the whole story to become a whole.

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Book Review || Turtles all the way down

“Imagine you’re trying to find someone or even you’re trying to find yourself, but you have no senses, no way to know where the walls are, which way is forward or backward, what is water and what is air. You’re senseless and shapeless- you feel like you can only describe what you are by identifying what you’re not, and you’re floating around in a body with no control.”

Rating: 3 out of 5.

At first, i didn’t understand what is going on. I had no clue what is the book about. I just read the short description. I thought that Aza and Daisy will fully investigate the mysterious disappearance of Russel Pickett, but i did not. I was somehow focused on Aza’s mental illness. Her Anxiety and OCD.

I was confused and i find it hard to read this book. In my opinion, this isn’t the best book Green published but it’s not worst. It has chapters that made me feel like i was Aza and having Anxiety and OCD attacks. Chapter 19 and 20 made me crazy and panicked. I was Aza.

Now let’s talk about Davis. Is he really necessary? Would the story progress without him? Well my answer is maybe and yes. Okay here me out first. Maybe he was necessary to let Aza have a romance in her life BUT i think the story would progress without him and all of his family situation. It felt like half of the book is about the mystery of the fugitive billionaire and the other half is about Aza’s mental illness. But they are good couple though. Nothing is pushed or they aren’t being pretentious. They actually understand each other.

For me, i would like to know more about Aza. John Green did portray her very well. Like how her illness affects her everyday situation and environment. Like how it not only affects her but the people around her too. Thoughts are really invasive. It could drown you and it’ll be hard to re-surface above water.

I love Aza. She really tries to be a good friend and daughter even though she felt trapped in her own thoughts and body. I think it would be great of it focuses more on Aza and her illness. On how she deals with it. And her dealing with it is intense. Every click of illness made me understand her and the illness more. I was with her in the entire time. Felt like i was her.

Overall, i do recommend this book.

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Book Review

Book Review || What Light

“There are so many things prickling in the back of my mind, threatening to take me out of this moment. But instead of worrying about anything, I close my eyes, lean forward, and allow myself to believe in us.”

Rating: 2 out of 5.

I was so excited to read this book because I really love 13 reasons why, so I started to read it. It hooked me for a moment then suddenly I got bored (?). I thought I might not want to finish this when I’m not on the mood. It was sitting on my shelf for over a year. Until I decided to finish it two days ago. For me, this book is just an ordinary YA contemporary romance. I did love some parts but I cannot say I loved the whole book. I love the setting. I love imagining the Christmas tree farm of Sierra’s family and how good they are each other. The description of the Christmas spirit here so wonderful.

It felt like the story was predictable and the characters are flat. I wanted more depth. This is just an ordinary story. She saw a boy, she thinks he’s cute and nice but she had known he was troubled. Then family doesn’t approve but in the end, they still end up together ALTHOUGH she will never come back next year. She never knows when she will come back. It wouldn’t be fair to Caleb because he might be a holiday fling if this doesn’t go well. I am disappointed really. I want other characters to do something more, to be involved. I have a few questions and I’m a bit confused. 1. Why does Sierra only talk or encounter like 3 teenagers? 2. What about Andrew? Like that’s it? He got like a few mentions and involvement. The biggest thing he did is when he told Sierra’s father what Caleb did to his sister, that’s it. Nothing more. I kinda expected a few dramas from him or a quick apology but nothing. 3. Also who skips her best friend FIRST BIG ROLE for a boy he just met? If I were Sierra, I would go and see my best friend perform. I could make up with him. The play is one time only she could make use of that excuse for Caleb. To be honest I am more interested in Sierra’s parents’ love story. It seems more magical and Christmas-y.

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